the shock of realizing my mother's demise is eminent just 10 days ago..
guilt ... just because we think we've never done quite enough ..
multiple visits to my mother who does not recognize me anymore .. or perhaps she does?
the realization that christmas is nigh and that a certain 12 and 18 year old are still excited ..
beloved relatives of mine who come to visit ..
a bittersweet, yet, good christmas with family and relatives ..
putting together information for the obituary .. ..
visiting my mother
my mother's sister who is flying in this evening ..
more visiting ..
and the waiting ...